I admit I have been BAD. Today seemed like license to kill day in terms of eat-all-the-sugar-you-want because tomorrow dawns early. Tomorrow is Ash Wednesday and like almost every year, I decide to give up all kinds of things mainly based in sugar. Some years it’s ice cream, some years it’s chocolate and this year I’m shooting for the moon. It’s got to be sugar this year for sure. Because sugar is bringing on some addictive-like behaviors in me. Not to mention a total loss of self-discipline and more importantly total disregard for the action/reaction results! Sugar in, hips out.
So like any true junkie about to attempt to go straight, I have over-indulged in chocolate and sugar for the last two days. I didn’t start out with that intention, but things sure did escalate quickly into maniacal sugar begets sugar syndrome that every diet book warns you about.
Last night, my Mah Jongg group met at my house and JUST to be nice (to whom I wonder) I decided to buy some dark chocolate-covered cranberries(well they sounded healthy) and overly-dyed red meringue. Other than one bite someone else took I believe I ate the entire meringue! Again, it was only egg whites AND sugar, lots of it. What was left of those two treats were finished off by me tonight. And you know sugar takes many forms; I had a huge bowl of pasta tonight with two meatballs and big slice of Tuscan bread and butter. I know, I know, it sounds like a person on a suicide mission and there you see that is junkie behavior.
SO tomorrow I have got to go cold turkey on sugar and most carbs. If for no other reason than health. Everyone in family has or had diabetes and many died from it. My own sugar level is getting close to borderline and so I’m going to try and focus on that factor alone and as a side bennie lose some weight along the way.
Wish me luck and strength and strong will and conviction and maybe I’ll make it not to Easter, but rather one day at a time.
Ashes imposed on the forehead of a Christian on Ash Wednesday.
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Lori – I have lost 36 lb. since May and Jim has lost 40 since about a month before that. I don’t think I have had one day since then that I have not had chocolate – I live for chocolate. I have cookies, I have pasta and bread. I think you know by now that “all things in moderation” is the way to go – I think we all know that and I don’t believe that people with “addictive behaviors” are different. I still want to eat a lot, but have come to find that two cups of popcorn (Trader Joe’s air popped 88 calories!) will trump 12 almonds any day, though nuts are good for you and I eat those too. Every morning at 11:00 I have 2 squares of extra dark chocolate (thank you Endangered Species) and don’t feel terribly deprived at all. I too love chocolate covered anything – cranberries and raisins jump to mind. Last night my treat was 1/2 cup of skim milk (42 calories) and 9 dark chocolate covered raisins from Fairway. I had a slice of grandma pizza from Gotham and salad for dinner and because I was hungry after the movie and didn’t eat until 8:00, I had the aforementioned popcorn before dinner. It works Lori and I am going strong after 8 months which I never thought I could do. You have to maintain a weight for 3 years before it sticks, so I am far from out of the woods, but getting closer every day. And get over this “being bad” idea left over from our childhood. Some days are better than others, but this self recrimination b.s. is sooooooooo over!